friendship????

Dan hari ini,
Aku menyelak lembaran sejarah,
Pada detik setiap pertemuan,
Pada detik sebuah keramahan dan manisnya kenangan,
Aku tak mampu lagi,
Membendung air mata pada sebuah kehilangan,
Antara kita yang terpisah,
Tinggal hanya serpihan hakikat,
Yang menyakitkan yang menghanyutkan,
Pada sebuah cerita duka,
Menunggu akan hadirnya sebuah harapan,
Untuk kita terus saja bersama,
Menggenggam erat sebuah persahabatan itu

This is one of a poem that I had written about my friendship one of my best friend or close friend or maybe best buddy. I don’t know how to classify this friendship because she already make me hurt. The worst thing about this one is that she said that she will easily get bored with our friendship. I don’t know why I have this kind of relationship. It is really weird when you say that you are feeling like this with your friend. For me best friend should not be like this because no matter happen we should be the one who will be by her side when she needs us. But when she says that she’ll get bored with me and will get rid of me for some time because she will find some time to rethink about our friendship. I rather be alone and don’t have any friend if it will only hurt my feeling and make me sad.

Now that I am home, I am super happy although we are not spending our time sitting together but at least went I wake up I know that there are someone care for me. I just can’t wait to have my own family. I want to make it up, about things that I can’t get in my life as a child in this house. I don’t want my children to have lack of love and attention. I don’t know if I can make it, but I’ll try my best to not to abandon and ignore my children. What a beautiful dreams. I know it’s hard but it’s not something impossible. But don’t know when I will have my own family. Ok I think that is enough for today I will have a lot of time to babble during this holiday.