New dreaming!

JB & Park Seo Joon - New Dreaming (Dream High 2 OST) Lyrics

As I see my dream growing faint from far away
I was blankly standing there - there's nothing more remaining
I thought maybe I should give up but I get up once again

* How hard it will be, how painful it will be -
I already know but I don't care -
The high wall that stands in front of me
I will jump over it for sure

Step by step yet again today
With all my strength
As I hold my fear and nervous excitement

Though I may sway and be shaken
I can't ever stop
In order to fulfill my dreams

Up until now, my future looked so dark
That I couldn't go after it but now I know
There is that one ray of light so I get up once again

* repeat

This fear that things may end like this was holding onto me
And it gave me a hard time but I will overcome it
In a deep place in my heart, the unstoppable cries
Will take me forward

‘New Dreaming’

jo mo li hi mi he ji nun, na ye ku mul ba ra bo myo
mong ha ni so i so so, do i sang na mun ge ob so
mo du po gi hal ka, he sot ji man
da shi i ro naol ma na hi mi dul ji, to ol ma na a pul ji
al go i so, nan sang gwan ob so
ne a pe bo ti go son, no pun byo gul ban du shi
no mul ko ya, nan nom go mal ko ya

han go rum, han go rum o nul do
on hi mul da he, ne di dyo
du ryo um gwa, so le i mu ran ko
bi tul go ri go, hun du lyo do
jol te ro, mom chul sun ob so
na ye ku mul, i ru gi wi he

i je kot, na ye mi re nun
no mu o du wo bo yo so, jo chul su ob sot ji man
han jul gi, bi chi it dan gol
al ge dwen ji gum, i sun gan
da shi i ro na

ol ma na hi mi dul ji, to ol ma na a pul ji
al go i so, nan sang gwan ob so
ne a pe bo ti go son, no pun byo gul ban du shi
no mul ko ya, nan nom go mal ko ya
ooh wo..

han go rum, han go rum o nul do
on hi mul da he, ne di dyo
du ryo um gwa, so le i mu ran ko
bi tul go ri go, hun du lyo do
jol te ro, mom chul sun ob so
na ye ku mul, i ru gi wi he

i de ro kun nal, ji mo ru nun
du ryo u mi na rul, jap go so
him dul ge he do nan, gyon dil ko ya
ga sum so ga, ju gi pun go se
mom chu ji an nun, nu li mi o nal
a pu ro i ku ro..

han go rum, han go rum o nul do
on hi mul da he, ne di dyo
du ryo um gwa, so le i mu ran ko
bi tul go ri go, hun du lyo do
jol te ro, mom chul sun ob so
na ye ku mul, i ru gi wi he

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Siti Khairunnisa

credit kepada Hakimah Jamel... Tahniah Puan Khairunnisa

Semalam sorang lagi kawan dah selamat tukar status menjadi seorang puan. Tahniah kepada beliau, semoga bahagia hingga akhir hayat. Didoakan juga walimah hari ini berjalan lancar. Masih juga tak dapat hadir sebab masih lagi terikat komitmen lain. Ramai yang bakal hadir memeriahkan majlis di Jitra. Next, bakal pengantin Siti Murshida, Rafizah, Nurul Farhana, Atiyah and a lot more in the future tahun ni. Maybe, lepas ni boleh la memeriahkan kenduri-kenduri kawan semua. So, didoakan semoga pangantin baru gembira dan bahagia bersama keluarga baru.

Tak payah nak beralasan sangat la...

Jenis aku, meluat sangat dengan orang yang banyak alasan. Tak mau cuba, tapi buat seribu satu alasan. Sekurang-kurangnya cuba dulu, baru la cakap. Menipu dengan macam-macam, tapi akhirnya akan kantoi juga. Kalau beralasan tak menyusahkan orang lain, tak kisah la sangat, tapi aku rasa setiap alasan akan menyusahkan orang. Harap dekat orang-orang yang suka beralasan ni, cuba la buang sifat tu. 

Counting days...

Kalau orang lain counting days untuk status dari Cik kepada Puan, Cik Syazwani pun nak counting days juga. Tapi bukan la nak tukar status macam kawan-kawan lain, just nak tukar status dari students kepada graduates? Boleh ke? Walaupun still ada 2 minggu, dah tak sabar sangat nak menghitung hari. Maybe sebab dah penat rasanya, and one more thing sebab Cik Syazwani dah selesai di observe oleh both lecture and cikgu pembimbing. Bagi yang belum, sabar ye. Dah tak nak rasa stress lagi dah, walau perangai budak-budak ni makin menjadi-jadi, I don't care anymore. Buat la apa yang korang nak buat, teacher don't care anymore. As long as you do your work, it's ok with me. Nak kurang ajar ke. nak ponteng class ke, nak kutuk ke, say what ever you want, I am happy enough that I am now counting the days to left you guys. Untuk yang form two, lepas ni rasa la belajar dengan teacher yang garang. Untuk anak-anak form one, I'm not sure what kind of teacher will be teaching you after this, tapi teruskan dengan sikap yang baik dan buang sifat yang kurang beradab tu. Walau muda macam mana pun, cikgu tetap cikgu, walau dia tak mengajar korang atau dia hanya cikgu pelatih dia tetap seorang guru yang nak mencurah ilmu dekat korang. So, here I am counting days, and there are 13 days to go (senyum sorang-sorang sambil type entry).

Kalau di beri pilihan....

Kalau aku di beri pilihan, aku lebih rela ambil exam daripada lecture datang nak observe. Why? Byk sangat sebab dia, yang paling aku menyampah ialah preparation yang beria, dan komen yang menyakitkan. Aku memang la suka dengan career ni, tapi aku memang tak mampu nak terima terlalu banyak sangat komen-komen yang buruk. Bukan tak boleh langsung nk terima tapi make it balance la, at least cakap benda yang baik and yang buruk, tak kan tak ada langsung benda baik yang aku buat. Nampak yang buruk je, aku je yangs alah, dia je yang betul. Please la, this education in Malaysia tak payah nak compare dengan negara lain, it's totally different.

 Aku dah tawar hati dah nak mengajar ni. Maybe sebab ni la kot, kawan-kawan ramai dah tak semangat nak menghadirkan diri kat sekolah. Aku pun sama, tapi sebab ada anak-anak yang aku sayang, aku gagahkan diri juga untuk tempuh berapa hari ja lagi waktu sekolah ni. Hari ini, aku prepare lagi, kalau tak nampak juga effort aku ni, aku tak tau la. Maybe dia dah ada satu impression kat aku kot, lepas tu memang dah tak boleh nak ubah, so jadilah aku serba tak kena, semua salah. Orang lain ok la, dapat kelas ok, aku ni dua-dua kelas pun, huh tak tau nak cakap.

 Banyak aku bersabar selama hampir 4 bulan dekat sini. Takut juga at the end aku lost temper and lepaskan semua benda yang aku simpan selama ni. Aku tak mau humbankan segala perasaan dekat budak-budak ni, tapi kalau dah perangai and kelakuan masing-masing buat aku sakit hati, apa lagi yang aku mampu buat sebab aku pun manusia. Memang kalau di beri pilihan saat ni, aku lebih rela ambil exam macma orang lain dari buat benda macam ni. Manusiakan senang je nak di pengaruhi oleh perasaan so wonder la, walau usaha sama, ada orang akan dapat A, ada orang akan dapat B. Periksa senang, tak nampak muka, tak ada nama, so dengan ikhlas hati bagi markah secar telus. 

Harap-harap cepat la semua di berakhir, aku dah penat, dah sampai masa aku berehat sekejap. Tak sabar nak tunggu 25/5. Semoga cepatla masa berlalu.

Chocolate oh chocolate...

Just finish 4 bars of chocolate, hoping that it may make me happy again. This is more is more depress than the examination. I hate this very much. With other lecture I felt better but with this one, I really feel like changing my career already. I don't know why, but I have started to hate this very much. It is toward the end for this teaching practice but the feeling of exhausted really make me sad and low in motivation. With the students who started to show their real attitude and behaviour. I just can wait anymore. I know that in the future I might need to handle and face with so many other things, but for a trainee teacher this is too much to handle. I really love this career but the environment seems like it does not suit with me anymore. Chocolate is a way to make me feel better, chocolate cake, hot chocolate, everything with chocolate can make me feel happy, or for now thing that I feel happy the most is the word "HOLIDAY". I'll only have 24 days to spend as a trainee teacher, and I really hopes that everything will be better for me.

Because I DO have you...

Rohana Sarif, whom i call mama: a teacher, a mother, everything for me

I might not have someone who I may call a special good friends, I may not have someone who I may call special boyfriend, I might not have someone who I can call a husband, to share my feeling; happiness, sorrow, disappointing, excitement, demotivate, but I DO have you. YOU, the one I call mother, the one I call MAMA. You who will be by my side when others step aside, You who will listen to every words I say, whether it is true or not, whether it is boring or interesting, You will always comfort me, You who always smile when others started to be annoyed with me. Because I DO have you, it doesn't matter if people say bad things about me, it doesn't matter if people say that I'm not good, it doesn't matter if people hate me, it doesn't matter if people say I'm but if  for you I'm everything, then I'M EVERYTHING. I believe in you, I really put all my believe in You. No matter others say, I'll  look at You, I'll listen to you and seek the strength from you. Because I DO have you, I become who I am today. From HIM i seek the forgiveness and pray, you'll be always happy and healthy.