It does not matter anymore.

You never get a best friend until they are willing to do whatever they can to make you happy. I does not matter anymore if they say we are friends forever but at the end just think about them. Do I need to think about them. Then find I’ll live by my own. It will happen every semester but this semester after what had done and happened from the past semester I just can’t accept it. To be alone is not my fear but with no friend towards the end of the battle make me worry aboutmy grade. Maybe I do not need any of them to make me feel better. To find someone who have a deep understanding about you is very difficult and frustating especially when you think you find one but at the end they make you dissapointed. This is maybe one of the story of the live when we are trying to find something but at last you fail and you know them better now.

A long holiday…

I guess it does not suit me for a long holiday. I will easily feel bored. I don’t know the reason for this but I think I am supposes to be very happy with the long holiday. But when I have nothing to do and my life goes on just like a same schedule I just think that I need something to make me smile again. It’s getting worse when I realize that this holiday came out in my dream. This must be the boring holiday ever. Stuck at home, doing the same thing every day, it just makes me miss my click. To think back I do missing the life campus, where I can have my friends when I need them and feel bored and someone to talk with when I feel like I want to. If I can choose, I think I want to stay at the hostel with the condition it is holiday, I have some money and I am with my best friend someone I can be with and spend the time with the memory. I guess I need to appreciate my campus life more than I have done before. Oh, I just think that I may go back to my life when I was a kid and does not have any think in my mind to worry about. Life as an adult make me feel tired and sometimes just make me feel that I just want to sit and do nothing but to remind back all the memories when I was a child and all the happy moment make me alive. sometime I think that I prefer stay at the campus have my life as a student happily.