Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Dan sehari yang memenatkan...

Aku akhirnya dapat juga pulang ke bilik setelah hampir 12 jam berada di sekolah. Terasa terlalu penat tidak dapat aku gambarkan dengan kata-kata. Katil seolah-olah satu-satunya benda yang paling menarik sebaik saja aku melangkah ke dalam bilik. Maka aku terfikir, bagaimana pula dengan seorang guru, seorang isteri dan seorang ibu. Bagi yang punya keluarga sendiri bagaimanakah rasa mereka, apakah sempat untuk mereka bahagikan masa untuk diri sendiri, suami dan anak-anak. Kalau aku yang hidup sendiri ini terkadang rasa seolah tidak cukup masa untuk diri sendiri bagaimana pula dengan mereka. aku makin kagum dengan mereka yang bernama wanita, yang memegang title wanita berkerjaya. Bukan mudah untuk menyeimbangkan antara kerjaya dan keluarga. 

Hari ini, waktu berjalan seolah lambat. Waktu terakhir kelas di habiskan bersama 2 Digital terasa amat memenatkan. Anak-anakku sudah hilang minat belajar, gurunya juga hilang semangat melihat anak-anak yang keletihan dan kepenatan. Aku terfikir mengapa subjek bahasa seringkali di letakkan di akhir-akhir waktu pelajaran. 

Bukan ingin merungut atau juga rasa menyesal memilih tugas ini, namun terkadang rasa hati ini di suarakan supaya beban jiwa dapat berkurang. Sungguh jauh di sudut hati, aku gembira dan tenang melihat wajah mereka, namun terkadang tak mampu aku harungi hari dengan kerenah nakal mereka. Terkadang rasanya seolah hilang sabar yang aku pegang. Dan aku terfikir lagi, aku baru saja memegang tugas sebagai pendidik selama sebulan saja sudah merasakan pelbagai rasa, bagaimana pula mereka yang menjadi pendidik hingga berdekad-dekad lamanya. Dan sungguh aku mengkagumi dan menghormati mereka. 

Anak-anakku, sungguh aku harap ada hari esok untuk kita bersua lagi. Aku berharap agar esok kita bersua ada yang aku boleh kongsikan bersama dengan kamu. Semoga senyumanku menguntum lagi melihat wajah-wajah kamu, biarkan aku tanamkan rasa sayang ini buat kamu. Moga di ikhlaskan jua niat di hati ini moga kita sama-sama mendapat manfaat dan berkatnya.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I MESSED IT UP

Today I suppose to go for co-curriculum programme at school, but I just mess the date with other co-curriculum date. I really don’t know the feeling of guilty arises. The most important thing that is messing up in my mind is that I’m afraid that people might say something about it. This really makes me panic. Actually the reason for me to be panic is that I really hate people to have bad impression to me. I have tried my best to be the best trainee. But sometimes things like this may ruin my reputation in a blink of eyes. The reputation is very important to me, once people have bad impression on us, it can stay forever. I really hate that, people sees me as a bad person. What should I do now? Apologize? Formal letter? I really can’t think any. I might just ask the seniors. Can I regain back my good status? I hope people will not see this one thing as bad deed. Really I messed up with it, really hoping that the people can understand my situation well.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Maulidur Rasul programme at Sungai Pusu.

Today after two week s of school, I need to wake up so early in the morning and go for the morning session. It just doesn’t feel good because I have already made used to my routine, schooling at the afternoon session. I feel really tired and cannot sleep the night before. I don’t know what happen but I hardly fall asleep last night. 

Today when I was asked to gather with the students, it reminds me of my old time, 5, 6 six back then. I really miss it. We once had this programme held at our school. I can clearly remember that we had managed to get a number for a competition for the banner. It really gave me a good memory about it. Then we had to walk and selawat together around the school. But one thing I can see at this school was that they did not have the spirit. I can barely listen to the selawat. When I was at my school, we really participated with fully sincerity. The feeling is not the same, I really had some expectation from this programme but it fail to fulfill my expectation. 

But still among one of the programme I was attracted with one of the videos. I actually almost shed my tears with the content of the video. It was about the final moment of Rasulallah at this world. It had narrated about, when Jibrail and Izra’il came to him, the acceptance of his companion, his daughter and all of Muslimin at the moment. The video really touched my heart. With that I really hope that I’ll love him more that other things. Place him at the top after Allah, and really follow what he had left for us; Al-Quran and his sunnah. Maybe sometime I forgot about his sunnah, but I hope that after this I will always remember his sunnah and do it without hesitation. If I’m saying that I miss him, I need to show that I really miss him. 

From now on I really hope and I pray that I will never forget him. The remembrance of him will make me closer to Allah. I don’t want to be one of the losing ummah. Starting from now on, I can be more istaqamah in my ibadah and take him as an example in my daily life

Friday, February 10, 2012

Tolong jangan cari kerja boleh tak???

Almost 2 weeks dekat sekolah membuatkan aku rasa terbeban dengan orang yang memang suka cari kerja macam dia sorang nie. Burden kurang sengaja nak cari burden ka? Please la jangan dok mengampu sangat. I hate person like that. Kalau libatkan diri awak saja, I don’t care ok, but this matter also had included me. So, aku memang rasa sangat menyampah. Dengan kerja banyak, dengan banyak nak kena prepare boleh pula dapat bad news like this. Spoil my weekend la. Just focus on your work, tak payah nak tambah lagi apa yang dah menimbun. Tak sabar sangat nak jadi macam orang lain? Fikir-fikir la pasal orang lain. 

Panas lagi hati ni. Maybe for some people that is only a small matter but for me who had a lot of things to think of, I feel all of the burden suddenly make me feel so stress. For now, I just want to ignore all of this matter and focus on this important matter. Hope Kak Lin will go easy on me for this first time. Pray for the best, give my all for this. Semoga Allah sentiasa memberi kesabaran dan kekuatan untuk mengharungi dugaan dan cabaran ini.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Aku biarkan jemari ini kembali menari

Lama terasa aku tak mampu meluahkan rasa yang terpendam dengan nukilan oleh jemari ini. Bukan tiada cerita yang ingin di kongsi namun, tidak sempat aku mencari ruang buat menitipkan rasa hati. Bukan kerana waktu yang mengekang namun kerana rasa penat yang mencengkam. Terlalu banyak ingin di luahkan hinggakan tidak tahu yang mana satu ingin di khabarkan dulu dan akhirnya ia hanya terbiar di dalam hati nan kian terasa penat. Sungguh memasuki alam kerjaya bukan suatu yang mudah. Untuk aku menyesuaikan diri dengan segala kerenah dan gelagat mereka-mereka di sini. Dalam rasa lelah ini namun masih lagi aku merasa suka. Emtah kenapa melihat mereka mengia saat di Tanya tentang apa yang telah aku berikan membuatkan aku merasa puas dengan apa yang telah aku lakukan. Namun saat aku terbaca wajah muram mereka, aku jadi resah juga. Aku masih muda dan hijau, masih banyak yang perlu aku hirup dan kumpul untuk mengharungi dunia ini. Moga perjalanan penuh liku ini mendapat redha dariNYA. Doaku semoga aku sentiasa di rahmati dan diberkati.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Kebaikan ayat Kursi..

Ayat Kursi: 
1) Baca pada saat keluar rumah, 70000 malaikat akan menjagamu dari semua sisi.

2) Baca saat masuk rumah, kemiskinan tidak akan memasuki rumahmu.

3) Baca setelah berwudhu, darjatmu akan dinaikkan 70 tingkat.

4) Baca pada saat tidur, malaikat akan menjagamu sepanjang malam
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5) Baca setelah solat, maka jarak antara kamu dan syurga hanya kematian.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

7 Dangerous acts after a meal

1. Don’t smoke ---- Experiments from experts proves that smoking a cigarette after meal is comparable to smoking 10 cigarettes (chances of cancer is higher)
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2. Don’t eat fruits immediately --- Immediately eating fruits after meals will cause stomach to be bloated with air. Thre fore take fruits 1 -2 hours after meal or 1 hour before meal.
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3. Don’t drink tea------ Because tea leaves contain a high content of acid. This substance will cause the protein content in the food we consume to be hundred thus difficult to digest.
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4. Don’t loosen your belt---------- Loosening the belt after meal will easily cause the intestine to be twisted and blocked.
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5. Don’t bathe----------------- Bathing after meal will cause the increase of blood flow to the hands, legs and body thus the amount of blood around the stomach will therefore decrease, this will weaken the digestive system in our stomach.
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6. Don’t walk about------------- People always say that after a meal walk a hundred steps and you will live till 99. In actual fact this is not true. Walking will cause the digestive system to be unable to absorb the nutrition from the food we intake.
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7. Don’t sleep immediately------------ The food we intake will not be to digest properly. Thus will lead to gastric and infection in our intestine.
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