Aku, mereka dan mereka...

Kebelakangan ni, banyak benda yang berlaku. Maksudnya dekat sini benda berlaku di sekolah, sebab hidup aku sekarang memang dan berkisahkan hidup di sekolah. Terasa macam kembali menjadi budak-budak sekolah cuma bezanya aku tak berpakaian sekolah macam anak-anak sekolah, dan aku ada lebih kuasa sikit, dari waktu aku belajar, namun begitu aku rasa jadi pelajar adalah lebih membahagiakan.

Menjadi cikgu yang selalu keluar jadi guru pengiring membuatkan aku mengenali dengan lebih rapat-rapat siapakah anak-anak di sekeliling aku. Budak-budak sukan dengan perangai budak sukan, budak-budak choral speaking dengan perangai yang macam-macam, budak-budak drama dengan perangai yang dramatik, budak-budak digital story telling dengan perangai yang penuh imaginasi dan macam-macam. Ada juga budak-budka yang aku bawa tapi still rasa kekok, sebab bukan aku yang latih. Macam masa aku ke simposium, masa aku ke program jom sihat. Tapi, sekurang-kurangnya aku kenal wajah-wajah yang selalu wakil sekolah.

Apa yang aku perasan kalau budak-budak sukan, hanya budak yang sama akan keluar sekolah dengan alasan wakil sekolah untuk sukan, olahraga, bola jaring, bola sepak, bola baling, rugbi. Ada 2 budak yang aku kenal, bola jaring, bola baling, olahraga hanya orang tu saja. Kalau English competition, public speaking, drama, choral speaking pun orang yang sama juga. Ada sorang budak, waktu nak lawan drama state level, dia masih lagi dekat Gunung Kinabalu, esok pukul 4 baru sampai sekolah dan terus dilarikan ke Kulim untuk drama. 

Kini hidup aku hanya berkisarkan kepada mereka sahaja. Anak-anak aku yang ramai. Mula-mula masuk dulu, olahraga, then public speaking, debate, simposium, choral spealing, drama, bola baling, story telling animation and tak tau juga apa lagi lepas ni. Merata-rata tempat aku berjalan bawa anak-anak, ada yang penuh suka dan duka. Dan sekarang apa saja social network aku status, picture, link selalunya akan berkenaan dengan mereka dan mereka ini. 

They are:

Fatin Fatiha dan Uwais for simposium

the hand ball team!

SMSAH debaters 2013

not the actor but the cook

choral speakers with Madam Rabitah, Madam Iena and me...

Something deep in my heart!

I just can't say anything and I almost cry the moment I get that letter. I don’t know why, maybe because right now I feel so stress out and suddenly when I already feel like the burden will be lifted soon, here come another thing and I don’t even have some time to breathe. It is cruel or what? I cannot complain to any one, I cannot say anything. It is just because I’m a new teacher. You need to this, you need to do that, you need to go there, you need to go here. Am I a robot or what? Don’t how I will survive. It has been like 7 month and I think I just smile when it was the school holiday. Even when it was school holiday, it was not my holiday.It was full, with the work matter, but still there are some people say that teacher don't do anything.

I do know it’s my job, my responsibility but how about others? Who just comes in and complain for everything and suddenly there is another people will be replacing them to do so call “not their work”. This is really annoying. Yes, I get my pay for doing all this thing but they also get the same payment as me, and even more than me, but how come they cannot accomplish their work just like others. Imagine if every people do their own work by themselves, everyone will be happy and everyone can work in harmony. No one will be stress and no one will be annoyed about this.

Is it because I’m not a marry lady than I need to do everything because others have their own family, kids, mother, father, grandfather, grandmother, etc. I DO HAVE A FAMILY, just like others. I do need to take care of my own things. I do want to be socializing like other people. Maybe someone needs to remind why I chose this path. I need some motivational quotes or stories for me to refresh and get my lost spirit. I just hope for some patience and strong will to survive this year!