Since it is my holiday, I don’t have that much thing to say and to mumble about. I am just moving on with some normal schedule of life at my home with my siblings which are my love one. My routine when it is a holiday; surfing internet, sleeping, reading (what a boring routine) but who knows one day I’ll be missing this period when it comes the time that I don’t even have time to lay down on my bed especially during in the middle of the semester. I’m trying to do so things that may give some benefits to me but I am really not in mood. It is just the same routine and same activities every day. Sometimes I hope for some a very nice vacation with the family but to think again it won’t happen just like I want. Well just need to accept as it is. Being a teacher today is not just the same like the old time. They are very busy even when it comes to the holiday. Belief it or not, sometime I feel very jealous to my mom’s students because she just spend most of her time with her students. As a “future teacher to be” I need to understand the situation that always arose in the school especially when she need to deal with the standard 6 students but sometime I cannot deal with it. I just feel that I had been abandoned. Ok, enough with the heart feeling and now just would like spill my worries towards my love one.
I started to worry about them when I browse through their FB pages. There are a lot of things that make me feel like that especially when they are now at the phase where they themselves don’t know what they want in their life, trying to find their identity. Trying to deal with them is not that easy as I had learned in the class. Yes! The theory is just not the same as the practical in the real life. At this moment the closet person with them is surely their friends, I guess it is true because I had been in this stage before. They want to be accepted in the community around them, and of course this will involve their friends with whom their share their story, interest and also some secret. As an adult (I think I am mature enough to admit that I am an adult =)) it is very difficult to enter the path to their life. They obviously will not share their secrets with us because they might think that we will not understand them and sometimes might prevent them to do the things they like. But they don’t know what they want may ruin their future. For example, smoking, coupling, illegal racing, pornography. I don’t want to say that coupling will make them a bad teenager or youth but if they don’t know they limit of it they might ruin their own life.
They might get drown in the “true love”, which they may say that I am happy with her, I am nothing without her, this is really not the things that they should think about. I know that sometime when they want to be accepted in their group they need to do and to just like others then my concern now is my love one. I am not that worry about my little sister because I know her (this is what I think) but I am very concern about them both of my little brother plus maybe my cousins. I think it is my responsibility to protect them. But how can I do that with all the technology and so many sources they may get all around them. To be with them 24/7 is something that is impossible thing to do, just some advice and some supervision is not enough. What else I can do? I want them to be mould to be at least useful person for the family and the society. Me as a role model? I don’t think I am a bad role model for them (I think so, am I? hihihi). O… my dear abang and adik please be a good person… I am hoping that you guys will not make mama sad and worry too much. As from my side, I’ll always pray for them, to be good for the sake of the family, society and religion.
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